Saturday, November 1, 2008

Someone explain Part 2

Here's part 2. Today was a better day.

Someone explain how I keep moving forward.
Someone explain why.
Someone explain why I can't quiet that voice...ya' know the one that says give up, it's too hard to go through the process.
Please, someone explain that to me.

Someone explain why I am always surprised when it hits me.
Someone explain when it won't rob my of my breath.
Someone explain why...just why.
Someone please explain that to me.

Someone explain why I want to crawl into a hole and sleep.
Someone explain how to stay out of the darkness.
Someone explain why I should.
Someone explain why today is harder than yesterday. It's day 18.
Yeah, someone explain why I'm even counting the days.
Someone explain why it matters.
It doesn't.

7 comments:

Lil Bit said...

I'll explain.... simply because you're healing, darlin'. Welcome the process. Each step and stage.
There's a light at the end of the tunnel.

*big hugs*

dangergirl said...

Thanks lb. I'm just ready for the healing process to be accelerated a bit, ya' know ? Well,actually I am waiting for warp speed ;D

It is better today. I just didn't expect it to be so messy so quickly!! Go figure.

He is such an asshole.

dg

Jennybean said...

Do what ever helps you to heal, to feel like someday you will be you again...

dangergirl said...

Thanks Jennybean...thanks.

the princess said...

some days will always be harder than others...as in any traumatic situation, but especially yours. sometimes all the overwhelming thoughts make you feel as if you are going a little crazy but i think that sometimes it's part of the healing process. try to maintain as much positive thought about yourself as humanly possible.

you did not deserve this. you are a beautiful woman who deserves much better. hibernate and the come out of it on top.

dangergirl said...

thanks princess. I am coming out of my cave more and the light feels okay. It also helps that I have so many folks like you giving me a hand.

God, he is such an asshole.

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